my son hasn’t spoken or seen me in going on 7 years now. the last few years we’ve been exchanging letters, for which i was extremely grateful. but i miss seeing him, i miss talking with him, and i miss father’s day with him.
i have issues with father’s day, though i always remember to at least send my dad a card.
for all the fathers out there, have a happy father’s day.
I’m so sorry.
I had a rough Father’s Day coming from the other end, as a daughter, but–yeah. I’m just sorry. I hope it gets better with a little more time.
Comment by little light — June 18, 2007 @ 7:58 pm
thanks. when he started writing back a couple years ago, i saw that as a giant step. i’m hoping he just needs a little more time for the next step.
Comment by nexy — June 19, 2007 @ 12:53 am
Hugs to you, Nexy. I hope that your relationship does take that next step someday.
I guess it’s been about a year and a half since I last saw my son, on his sixth birthday. I still think of him from time to time, but for me, it’s better to just let the past be the past.
Comment by Michelle — June 19, 2007 @ 6:38 am
You associate with Father’s Day and not Mother’s day? I guess so, because you’re not his mother. That’s interesting, maybe a little confusing. I wish yours had been better, did you at least get a phone call?
And have you heard from Sybil at all? Jeesh..
Comment by Stacey — June 20, 2007 @ 3:21 pm
actually, i’ve been a little worried about sybil - she hasn’t posted and i haven’t heard from her.
i don’t associate with either fathers or mothers day - why isn’t there a parents day? i call my mom and dad, and send them cards on their respective days, but i have issues with my own relationship with my son, so i tend to avoid dwelling on it - it just hurts too much. unlike michelle, i can’t just let the past be the past. though i don’t know what the result of that is.
and yes, it’s confusing, and i don’t know that i’ll ever come to terms with being his father since my transition. i like to think of myself as his parent, but there’s no getting around the fact that i’m his dad.
Comment by nexyjo — June 22, 2007 @ 1:01 am