Re: Stop both engines…

May 11th, 2012

Sometimes I get that “It’s about me.’ Not even because something really is about me, but because folk want to make it about me.

Over at the blog It’s not about the clothes they have a post entitled Stop both engines…. It apparently is an ad hominem post by one of the bloggers at that blogsite — just a bit earlier in the week, another blogger at the blogsite posted another ad hominem piece entitled Autumn Sandeen – you’re a dick.

Well anywho, the Stop both engines… post is about me wearing a military uniform consistent with my gender identity. The photos on the site are three years old, but only now is when the writer of that post is objecting to my wearing of female U.S. Navy uniform.

And here’s part of the writer’s argument against me wearing a uniform consistent with my female gender identity:

We’re having a bit of a dilemma here, and for a change, it is all about the clothes. You see, some people have suggested that Sandeen is treating the female naval uniform as a costume. Others are not so charitable.

The thing is, when you look at the pictures of Sandeen, you might get the impression that she served in, and retired from the US Navy as a female.

Nope.

She never wore the female uniform. She bought it after she retired from a navy that would have kicked her out for being transsexual. It get’s worse, as she deliberately wore the very same uniform when she chained herself to the White House fence, knowing full well that she would be arrested and processed as a transsexual.

…Be proud of your service – that’s fine and admirable, but quit wearing that uniform as a costume – Autumn Sandeen never wore a female uniform while serving…

In the comment thread, the blog author of the piece responded to commenter in the comment thread who wrote “The military does not recognize her as female. Neither does the State of California. She’s playing dress up.” by writing:

To be fair to Sandeen, if she managed to get her birth certificate changed we’ll apologize to her for the error. If…

The responses are personal, even though I have no idea who the blog author or the thread commenter are.

A retired, U.S. Navy Chief wrote a comment though that I thought needed a response. First, the Chief’s comment:

Common sense and dignity govern when and where a military retiree can wear a uniform. For formal occasions, retirees and veterans can wear the current uniform or the last one worn on active duty. A local commander can authorize the wearing of other uniforms. Wearing a uniform is forbidden for business or personal gain or while participating in an event that may cast the military in an unfavorable light.

Regardless of her motives, Sandeen violated 10 USC CHAPTER 45 by wearing that costume. That was not brave, it was grandstanding to draw attention to herself, gather more fame and a lame attempt to increase her ‘credibility’ as a trans crusader. The only reason that she was not remanded by federal authorities was that they had the common sense not to provide her with a free venue and the attendant publicity where she could whine and cry about being persecuted for being transgender, as opposed to be hauled up on the carpet for breaking the law and code of uniform justice.

And here’s how I responded to the chief:

The actual violation I engaged in by wearing a Navy uniform to protest against Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell is found in the U.S. Navy’s Uniform Regulations, specifically found in Chapter 6, Section 10. The relevant paragraph in the section states:

“Retired personnel are prohibited from wearing the uniform in connection with personal enterprises, business activities, or while attending or participating in any demonstration, assembly or activity for the purpose of furthering personal or partisan views on political, social, economic, or religious issues.”

The violation of that regulation made my two 2010 protests Uniform Code of Military Justice (UCMJ) offenses — specifically Article 92 offenses for which I could have been court martialed. The maximum punishment for an Article 92 offense includes 2-years confinement and a dishonorable discharge.

It would have taken a lot of effort on the U.S. Navy’s part to reactivate me, charge me under Article 92, and then prosecute me for what many perceive to be a relatively minor offence. However, if the U.S. Navy had decided to take that tact back in 2010, and I’d have been found guilty of one or more Article 92 offences at court martial, then there was a possibility that I could’ve lost my retirement pay and benefits under the Hiss Act. The Hiss act is codified under 5 USC Chapter 83, Subchapter II – FORFEITURE OF ANNUITIES AND RETIRED PAY, and loss of retirement pay and benefits for the on if the offence of wearing a uniform to protest against Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell would have depended on whether the offense rose to the level outlined in § 8312 – Conviction of certain offenses. Frankly, I’m not an attorney — I’m just not sure.

When I chose to join with GetEqual to protest Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell (DADT) with a number of uniformed lesbian and gay veterans, I had two reasons for protesting. The first is that DADT was wrong and needed to be challenged. Secondly, I wanted to send a message to lesbian, gay, bisexual, and trans (LGBT) community members that for me, if an issue is an issue for even one subcommunity of the LGBT community, then it’s my issue — my hope was, and still is, that lesbian, gay, and bisexual people would in turn work on trans issues with the same intensity that I worked on a purely LGB issue.

My broader point was, and still is, that civil rights aren’t about you or about me, or about yours or my demographics. Instead, civil rights are about us — all of us. Civil rights are human rights, and we’re at our human best when we embrace fighting for the ordinary equality of all of us. I believe we haven’t started living until we can rise above the narrow confines of our individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.

Martin Luther King Jr. stated that “An individual who breaks a law that conscience tells him is unjust, and who willingly accepts the penalty of imprisonment in order to arouse the conscience of the community over its injustice, is in reality expressing the highest respect for the law.” Paraphrasing that thought, I broke a regulation to protest a law that my conscience told me was unjust, and I willingly accepted the punishment I did receive, and the potential punishments I knew I could receive. I took the action I did because I wanted to arouse the conscience of the President, Congress, and broader society over its injustice towards LGBT community members, and I protested in uniform with very much the highest respect for the military in which I’d served 20-years

.

I certainly respect the Chief’s viewpoint on protesting in uniform. However, my lesbian, gay, and bisexual siblings in LGBT community can now serve openly in the U.S.’s five military services — that makes the very small part I played in DADT’s repeal worth it. Basically, I’d do what I did again — even if I knew ahead of time I’d definitely have the character of my discharge downgraded and lose my pension for protesting in uniform.

The hope of a secure and livable world lies with disciplined nonconformists who are dedicated to justice, peace and brotherhood. In whatever way one wants to define me as being nonconforming, I’ll take it if it means furthering the cause of ordinary equality.

I’m not likely going to ever convince people who believe I’m a narcissist, or that I’ve worked on issues regarding ordinary equality for LGBT people because I care about those who suffer in broader LGBT community, and especially those who suffer in the population of transsexual, transgender, and gender nonconforming people. I’m sure as hell not a part of the struggle ordinary equality for any personal fame — the personal downsides of being well known in and out of trans community far outweighs any benefit to being known as trans.

But a trans writer at a pro-transsexual/anti-transgender blog writing about my photos in uniform more than three years after the photos were taken, and more than two years after the first time I took to the White House fence — wow. For that writer, it really is seemingly all about Autumn…the Autumn that she apparently hates in large part because I identify with the term transgender.

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missing images

March 17th, 2012

in a short time, mobileme, the service i use to host my images, will go away. virtually every image on this blog will go away. i have no desire to fix every image link, nor do i have a substitute image hosting site lined up. just thought i’d mention this…

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Choosing The Harder Path

March 11th, 2012

Autumn SandeenWell, I haven’t updated this blog in roughly three years. It’s not that I haven’t been writing, it’s that I’ve have been writing elsewhere both on the web and in ink-and-paper publications, and most of my posts here were crossposts of those writings.

Often I need an outlet for personal thoughts, and just haven’t had a place to make those comments I don’t want to post on Pam’s House Blend or in the Trans Progressive column of LGBT Weekly. So, I think I’m going to start updating this blog again for when I have personal thoughts I don’t currently don’t have any appropriate place to share.

To begin with, I’ve written these general thoughts on activism elsewhere on the web, and I’m going to repeat those thoughts here:

Civil rights aren’t about you or me; civil rights aren’t about your demographics or mine. Instead, civil rights are about all of us, and what is, and what has been, at stake in all of the world’s civil rights movements is the human dignity of all of us.

And…

It’s just not enough to know what we’re against; we have to know what we’re for, and then work and sacrifice for it.

I’ve engaged in activism that’s been behind the scenes — community activism that isn’t public. Some of that non-public community activism involves attempting to break ground by using myself as a test case. I recently was involved in changing public policy on the federal level by functioning as a test case, but the federal policy I worked for is now giving others a benefit that again has again been denied to me. And, not because I’m not eligible for that benefit, but the non-public action that I took to help create the benefit for others hasn’t fully ran its course behind the scenes. The change I helped put in process is being denied me because the process behind the scenes is still ongoing.

What’s in the best interest of communities isn’t always in the interest of individual community members; the path of least resistance is often in the best interest of an individual community member, but that path often doesn’t help other community members who, for whatever reason, aren’t afforded the opportunity to take that same path of least resistance.

In my recent behind the scenes case that’s still playing out, I was presented with the choice of doing what’s in my personal best interest or doing what is in the best interest of my community peers. Well, civil rights aren’t about me, and knowing what I’m for has ended up testing my personal value of working and sacrificing for what I believe in.

This hasn’t been an easy choice at all. I’ve wept over the decision to press ahead behind the scenes on this because of the personal cost of this decision — no one would fault me if I just gave up on this fight. I finding that in this particular instance I really, really just want to take the path of least resistance. I’m finding that doing what I believe is the right thing in this instance has turned out to be more personally painful than I thought it would be — hell, it was easier choice to go to jail over repeal of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell than it’s been to live with the consequences of this recent choice.

And believe me, this isn’t me trying being to say how wonderful I am for just pressing forward; this is me just expressing frustrating feelings of dejection and hurt. It’s because working and sacrificing in this instance feels unbearable: I just want to just give the f*** up. If you asked me today if being an activist and living up to my own words is worth it, I’d be hard pressed to answer “yes.”

Well, I’m always quoting civil rights activists of past civil rights movements because those folk remind me that choosing more difficult paths for the civil rights of the collective us is the right choice. And, I often quote these personal heroes of mine to bolster my spirits when my spirits are down. This is one of those kind of times I’m needing bolstering as a reason to quote one of my civil rights activist heroes.

So, here are a few quotes from Cesar Chavez that I’m remembering as I’m writing this piece…the quotes I’m trying to cling to while feeling personal despair:

  • “We cannot seek achievement for ourselves and forget about progress and prosperity for our community…Our ambitions must be broad enough to include the aspirations and needs of others, for their sakes and for our own.”
  • “When we are really honest with ourselves we must admit that our lives are all that really belong to us. So, it’s how we use our lives that determines what kind of [people] we are. It is my deepest belief that only by giving our lives do we find life.”

And this one especially:

  • “We draw our strength from the very despair in which we have been forced to live. We shall endure.”

I don’t feel strong today; I’m honestly not drawing any strength today from the despair I’m feeling. Maybe tomorrow…maybe tomorrow.

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eleven

February 4th, 2012

 

 

very much enjoying this cd.

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riding

January 2nd, 2012

 

 

first bike ride for 2012. passing by the construction site where they’re building a bike path underpass across 7th avenue.

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new year prep

December 31st, 2011

 

 

have a wonderful new year, and stay prepared for the coming zombie apocalypse.

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lady smith

December 24th, 2011

 

 

i picked up a lady smith model 60 at arizona firearms & pawn yesterday. now i have a set.

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everywhere

November 6th, 2011

 

 

zombie culture is everywhere, even on postsecret. people are making plans.

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new amp

November 5th, 2011

 

 

i enjoy shopping at bookmans. the prices and selections are great, and it’s a small contribution i can make for recycling. recently, they started carrying musical instruments, and it’s been tempting. today, i picked up a used peavey audition plus guitar amp. that brings back some memories for me. now if i can only remember how to play…

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boo!

October 31st, 2011

 

 

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october shopping

October 8th, 2011

 

 

gotta love the halloween store.

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sog

October 6th, 2011

 

 

the ultimate zombie apocalypse tomahawk. they make some other cool stuff too. sog

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zrs

September 21st, 2011

 

 

i’m now a lifetime member of the zombie research society.

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rogue redux

September 18th, 2011

 

 

my new rogue figurine, this one, custom made by a friend.

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fly from here

September 11th, 2011

 

 

i am a long time yes fan, so i was extremely pleased to learn that a new album was released this past july, close to 10 years since their last studio album. i’m listening to it right now, and i really like it. a new singer, benoît david, and keyboard player, geoff downes, enhance, rather than diminish the line up. i actually went out and purchased the cd, rather than buying it on iTunes.

if you enjoyed yes in the past, i highly recommend this album.

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zrs phoenix

September 10th, 2011

 

 

i just came back from the zombie research society’s phoenix chapter meeting at bookman’s. i had to join. i’m now a lifetime member.

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pain

July 2nd, 2011

 

 

on a trans message board i frequent, the question was posted “Why is gender dysphoria painful?” there was the usual talk, and i posted this as a response:

the whole “girl mode” and “boy mode” thing, the “feeling like myself” thing – these phrases never worked for me. in 1984, the concept of newspeak is explored, and to me, that’s one of the difficulties in talking about the trans experience. there are no words to express the feelings and experiences involved in living as a trans person. with newspeak, the government crafted the language so that only politically correct thoughts could be expressed. and to me, that’s what using english is like to describe being trans.

i’d go as far as to say that the very question “Why is gender dysphoria painful?” results as part of the limited vocabulary in english. because there’s no language, the thoughts in and around the trans experience are very difficult, or even impossible to verbalize. i think most every trans person would agree that gender dysphoria *is* painful. why it’s painful is obvious to the trans person. it’s about authenticity. it’s about moving through the world as a fully actualized human being. the “why” is not much more than mental masturbation, because it’s something that’s felt down to the fiber of ones bones and soul. it’s like asking why a headache is painful. because it hurts – it’s that simple and obvious.

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at the docs

June 28th, 2011

 

 

had my annual exam today. i really like this new guy they have, T.J., he’s sincere, gentle, and seems to know his stuff. i was considering changing to a different practice, but i’m very comfortable with him. all looks ok, pending test results. looks like i’ll live.

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apex j frame kit

June 4th, 2011

 

 

i installed the apex j frame duty/carry kit in my s&w 637-2 today. took all of 15 minutes. definitely lightens the trigger pull by a few pounds. looking forward to trying it out at the range.

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the annihilator

May 27th, 2011

 

 

as we near the close of zombie awareness month, i thought i’d highlight a recent purchase. besides, how could anyone pass by a tool called “the annihilator”, made by a company called dead on tools. home depot sells the 18″ version currently for $29.95, and it’s even featured on the zombie research society blog.

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The MSNBC Anti-LGBT Hate Connection

May 23rd, 2011

Have you ever wondered why you never, ever, see transgender-identified guests appear on supposedly liberal and progressive MSNBC? Don’t you think it’s kind of odd that even lesbian and gender-variant Rachel Maddow completely erases trans people from her coverage, even when a story is directly relevant to trans lives (notice how Maddow mentions that the hate crimes law protects Americans on the basis of gender identity, but doesn’t bother to define that uncommon term for her audience)?

Have you noticed that while MSNBC provides hours and hours of coverage of lesbians and gays employed by the government, as they did when Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell was a hot topic last year, you never see them cover the struggles of the vastly larger group of LGBT Americans, or even of straight Americans, who work in the private sector?

When the transphobic beating of Chrissy Lee Polis last month at a Baltimore County McDonald’s was covered by just about every mainstream media outlet in the country, including the Associated Press, UPI, The Washington Post, the local news coverage of all three major networks, George Stephenopolis on Good Morning America, and even Sean Hannity on FOX, did you wonder why the only major mainstream news outlet which completely ignored the story was supposedly liberal and left-wing MSNBC?

The answer to these questions is probably simpler than you expect. It’s not about editorial choice as some would have you believe, but rather that at least one of the major corporations which owns MSNBC is not only simply not in favor of enacting those protections, but is actually actively working to prevent LGBT Americans working in the private sector from gaining legal protections against discrimination.

In Tennessee, where both houses of the legislature just passed a bill that will prevent that state’s cities and municipalities in the state from enacting anti-discrimination protections for their LGBT citizens, the Tennessee Chamber of Commerce was one of the hardest lobbyers for its passage. That organization includes among their board members not only such major American corporations such as ATT, Alcoa, FedEx, DuPont, Blue Cross, Blue Shield, Caterpillar, KPMG, Whirlpool, Nissan, and United Healthcare, but also Comcast, a part owner of NBC, and therefore of MSNBC.

As reported at Americablog, Daily Kos, and elsewhere, Alcoa has been the only Tennessee Chamber of Commerce board member to completely disavow the Chamber’s support for the Tennessee bill and declare its opposition, which currently awaits the governor’s signature. Three other board members, FedEx, Nissan, and AT&T, have released statements on the Chamber’s support for the bill, distancing themselves from it, but have not actually declared that they oppose the bill becoming law. Also, bear in mind that we’re not talking about companies which are simply Tennessee Chamber of Commerce members here, we’re talk about the organization’s board members, those companies which have direct influence and voting power in setting the Chamber’s agenda and what legislation it will and will not support. To date, Comcast has remained publicly silent on the issue.

But wait…there’s more.

It’s fair to say that if you want to gain insight into who’s really pulling the strings at any politically-active entity, the first place you should look is at who’s signing the checks. Who’s signing the checks at MSNBC? Well, as with any commercial media, aside from the network owners themselves, it’s the sponsors, the business interests which run advertisements on the network. Among MSNBC’s largest and most omnipresent sponsors is ExxonMobil, the only Fortune 500 corporation ever to actually rescind anti-discrimination protections for its LGBT employees once they had already been enacted. ExxonMobil’s argument in favor of repealing those protections for Mobil employees when Exxon bought the company and their refusal to enact them once the companies had merged into the largest energy mega-conglomerate on Earth is that United States law doesn’t require them to do so. With a record like that, it’s fair to say that ExxonMobil is probably not in favor of doing anything that might help LGBT workers gain any more rights or anti-discrimination protections than we already have, and in fact, has a vested interest in doing whatever they possibly can to prevent those rights and protections from being enacted in the future.

Anyone who watches MSNBC with any regularity probably knows that Rachel Maddow and others who host shows on the network or have in past have often claimed publicly that corporate higher-ups exert no influence on what their hosts choose to cover or on the political positions they take. That’s probably true, as far as it goes. Yet, how many hosts in corporate-owned cable news media are going to go directly against the known interests of their own sponsors in their coverage? Chances are they won’t, not if they wish to keep their very highly-paid jobs. Anyone who believes that cable news media puts the interests of their viewers ahead of those of their sponsors need only heed the lesson of Glenn Beck. Despite being highly appealing to his viewing audience, Beck’s on-air content did not encourage sponsors to continue advertising on his show and so his show on FOX is going away.

It doesn’t take an edict, or even so much as a single word, from MSNBC’s corporate overlords to get Rachel Maddow and the rest of MSNBC’s on-air hosts to decide not to cover trans people or the movement to protect civilian LGBT American workers from discrimination in this country. Anyone who works in that industry or even just pays close attention to it knows perfectly well that when you do anything which angers your major sponsors and therefore threatens your employer’s income stream it’s highly likely that your days are numbered at that employer.

So, if you’ve ever wondered why despite the reality that trans-relevant stories like the Chrissy Lee Polis beating are getting more and more mainstream news media coverage that ever before but they’re still consistently ignored by supposedly progressive MSNBC or why LGBT American workers employed by the government get plenty of coverage on the network but both straight and LGBT American workers employed by private industry get virtually none at all, now you know. It’s not about reporting the news, it’s not about journalism, and it’s certainly not about serving the needs and interests of their viewers. It’s all about money, about making as much of it as possible for themselves, their sponsors, and their network.

Remember, when your news and opinions are coming from someone who makes more money in a single day than you probably make in a year, someone who’s dependent upon the continuing goodwill of corporate interests which are actively working against your equal rights and treatment as an American citizen to continue making that kind of income, it’s more than fair to ask just who’s side they’re really on.

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zombie awareness

May 1st, 2011

 

 

may is zombie awareness month.

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water

April 2nd, 2011

 

 

picked up this primo ceramic water cooler in preparation for the coming zombie apocalypse. shopped around, walmart had the best price at $30.00. now i just need to stock up on water.

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rhodes electric piano

April 2nd, 2011

 

 

apparently, they’re making the fender rhodes piano again, only it’s not made by fender. why wasn’t i told?!?!?

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Tonight On The Rebecca Juro Show: HRC Press Secretary Michael Cole-Schwartz

March 24th, 2011

On this week’s Rebecca Juro Show we welcome Human Rights Campaign Press Secretary Michael Cole-Schwartz. We’ll talk with Michael about HRC’s advocacy of LGBT rights, where they are now and where they’re going. There’s been a lot of discussion about HRC’s past and their history with the trans and grassroots communities, but on this show we’re going to talk about the future. Can HRC and the trans and grassroots activist communities ever work together effectively or is that no longer possible? Where is HRC on ENDA now and what can we expect to see from them on the effort in the future? What’s the most urgent goal now in the post-DADT era? ENDA? DOMA? Something else? We’ll explore those questions and more tonight!

It’s the Rebecca Juro Show, 7-9pm eastern! Be there or you’ll miss good stuff!

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